My fourth (or was it the fifth?) meeting of the lgbt club on campus was probably the best meeting this semester. After our awesome president made the usual announcements, we had a huge group discussion over some issues in society. We focused on bisexual phobia and transgender phobia. I find it very interesting to hear other people's views and opinions over certain matters. Of course, I never got the courage to raise my hand and say anything. They were using a microphone at one point! I definitely didn't want to talk then...Then again, do I have much to say about bisexuality and transgenderism? Since I'm still figuring myself out, I question whether I may or may not be bisexual. I suppose I could have mentioned my confusion in club since it was "confession time", but that would have been embarrassing. We talked about the various myths and stereotypes of bisexuals. Some people think they are "greedy" or that it is just a transitional phase to homosexuality. There were a few bisexual people in club, and they were very adamant about defending their sexuality. Some of the stereotypes are ridiculous. We watched this short Youtube video about it. I have a feeling that not everyone got the satire in it, but it was still interesting to watch and take note of other people's reactions.
One guy sitting in front of me in particular defended his bisexuality adamantly. He was sitting next to the president (in which I was nervous to sit so close to two awesome people that I don't know) and was hugging her a lot. The second half of the discussion revolved around transgender phobia, but I was unable to stick around for the majority of it. What we did discuss before I left was the difference between sex and gender. However, I remember learning about that in several of my classes already. They are two different things, and it's crazy when people don't see that. I guess "crazy" isn't the right word to use. I don't know. I see the clear distinction. Anyway, the conversation turned into asking about the typical stereotypes of transgender people and how other people have responded to them. That's when I had to leave, unfortunately. I really enjoyed the discussion-based segment of Spectrum. I hope to go again and hear more. I wish I could stay for the entire time though. I was very tempted to tell my brother that I was going to Spectrum, but I chickened out...Oh well.
Did I interact with anybody this time? You could say that...I helped them rearrange chairs in the beginning and this guy briefly talked to me. It was the same guy that held the door for me a few weeks ago and attempted talking to me then. It was nothing special last night. Just a brief discussion on how to arrange the chairs. XD But yeah...I sat alone and in the back as usual. I noticed two guys that I see periodically at work. I shouldn't assume someone's sexuality if they go to Spectrum meetings, right? One of them was pretty vocal in the club and easily admitted that he was gay though. I'm not sure about the other guy. He was sitting by himself the entire time. I felt like I should have sat by him, but I chickened out yet again. I'm a bad person. He comes into work quite often to work on chemistry homework and look up video game information. Jeez! I sound like a stalker! It's hard not to notice when he sits at the computer right in front of my desk! I wish I could make conversation with him, but the best I got was a small joke last Friday. He laughed, but it might have been a pity laugh. Heh, anyway....
I chipped in about half the money with my mom to buy us a new computer! It's a pretty nice HP. We were kind of overdue for an upgrade anyway. To my delight, it has a pretty decent graphics card in it. So what did I do? Buy another copy of Dragon Age: Origins. I'm too obsessed with that series...I've heard so many things about modding that game for PC, so I wanted in on the action! I started downloading some mods and watched a few tutorials on how to do so. Some mods are extremely easy to install, while others make my head hurt. Some involve changing some lines of the coding, and others require you to download other mods in order to get that mod to work. I downloaded several mods, but I only was able to get two of them to work. I may have to look up more information. Some modding advice would be nice! I'm a sucker for character creation, so I'm probably going to waste a lot of time creating characters with mods. Oh well. Here is what I've made thus far.
I've never actually finished a file on either Dragon Age game as a female. It's weird, because I mostly prefer playing as female in Mass Effect. What can I say? Femshep is a badass! The real reason is that I've never been able to create an attractive female on Dragon Age. They always appear weird looking and fragile. I thought I liked this character, but she looks a little depressed and frail. Her hair and hair color are mods. I'm not sure if I'll keep her. I do want to complete the game as a female though. I've romanced about every character in the game except Alistair. I see fangirls go crazy over Alistair, so I want to see what all of the hoopla is about. He is one of my favorite characters though, mostly due to his banter with Morrigan. XD
I think he turned out better than she did. He is a Dalish Elf, but you can't really see his ears. I'm pretty sure that his hair is the only mod. I hope I can figure out how to use some other mods. I've never beaten the game as anything besides a human, so I feel slightly racist...I will beat it as an elf! I just can never make a cool dwarf though...
This has gone on too long. I have more important things to do. Good day to you, Xanga.
That's so awesome! The GSA showed us a video just like that one called The Homosexual Menace! XDD It's so hilarious~!! Anyway, I'm proud that you managed to interact with that nice guy and I don't think you're a chicken or a stalker in any way. ^^ I notice people all the time. It's human nature to track those we know. Anyway, as for your sexuality, you don't have to have a label. I for one go by pansexual just because it's the closest thing to describe me that I've managed to find. I hate bisexual myths and misconceptions though, especially since many of them also apply to pansexuals. Yes, some people say bisexual as an intermediate phase, but most others truly are bisexual, or pansexual. ^^ Have you guys played any fun games yet? We played a game this Wednesday where we came out from behind a closet door and announced ourselves after telling our stories. XD
@Attila_the_Honeypie - Th-thanks. XD We've played some ice breaker games, but I haven't really been able to stick around long enough to enjoy them. Also, I chickened out of the first game we played earlier in the semester. Heh heh heh...That game of yours...wow! It sounds scary. I don't think I could play it without having a nervous breakdown! Did you enjoy it? You're pretty open about your sexuality, aren't you? I'm still very closeted and confused, so I feel out of place in club most of the time. I almost want to label myself using the Kinsey scale, but I've heard some negative things about it...I think. XD Labels make things simpler for our minds, don't they? Or maybe they hinder us.
@Trizzopi - I really don't care for labels either way, but it's nice to have something to use as a describing term. As a writer, being able to describe things is important to me. And yes, our game was very enjoyable, though I might have accidentally ranted a bit when I was trying to figure out what to say. XD It was nice hearing everyone who participated's story, and I like being able to tell my own. Also, thanks to the activity, I now know that there are at least 3 other pansexuals in the group. XD Oddly enough, we're having a bit of a hard time finding a lesbian to be in our panel. Anyway, yeah. I'm very open about it. The only people I bothered to hide it from was family, but, even then, I managed to come out to my parents in less than 2 years, which is better than a lot of people I've heard of. ^^; I tend to be a very honest person in general. XP